this feeling more and more each day. its kinda make me think. kemana ini bakal pergi nantinya? gmn kalo rasa ini nyampe dipuncaknya? how if i think that i must be his gf? im too scared, im too weak to face it kalo semua yg gue takutin bakal terjadi. gue mikir lagi. this is a thing that may be doesnt hv an ending. so lets think. he's
still have responsibility with another girl, but he have what im feeling too... than i try to discuss with him.
Thursday, 14th '10 15:30 pm, in the rain, at the ladder of 2nd floor of our school,there's dark. we were talking there. first, gue nyoba cerita tentang perasaan ini, dan gue udah niatin no cry. but.. air mata itu gabisa ditahan, itu keluar gitu aja. he tried to make me stopped, he was rub my head. honestly i didnt mean to offense him. swear i wont crying in front of you, but i cant:"""( hmm, may be to let him go is solution to over this thing, Gosh... gue gabisa jauh dari dia, gue sayang sama dia, gue peduli sama dia. what the hell happening in my life. kenapa gue harus suka sama orang yg ga akan pernah gue milikkin seutuhnya. finally, i decided to try move on. randomly i know i cant! its just too luxurious to forget. but once again.. kalo gue jalanin ini terus dimana penyelesaian itu? and how bout 'her' feel. gue mesti mundur, walaupun itu sakit................susah. but i requested him to help me do this, tp ga dengan cara ngebuat gue benci sama dia, and he promised me. he requested me too, he want me to open my heart for another boy. god............:"""( im terribly down right now. fu.....mau gamau gue harus ngejalanin ini, dan gue berharap kita ga lost contact. its hard, i need you but i must leave you:( i just sent you 1 picture bout you and us right? so keep it, i made it after we were hanging out in the mall. its just present for you, no offense, so take care with yours, im here, just often to sharing with me. i love you
