What's up? I know we haven't spoken for a while. But I can't hide these feeling suddenly appears. So many things to say, that I wanna know the answers to.
How are you? Every single of my days, I always prayed to God that someday I can forget you at all. I'm lost, I'm confused. I've just got nothing to lose. It seems there's always something right there to remind me. Like a silly joke, special short text message, it was flat but I loved. I'm hearing our songs, I just get that same old feeling. I still kept all of our pictures, just don't have the strength to part with them yet. I know I shouldn't be like this, this is my choice.
But once, I don't know where I must be telling with that I can't hide I'm still not over you.
I already love '13', but your shadow always appears on my mind.. I've tried to let em out but it just can't. Damn. Honestly, I'm not believe in '13' yet at all. May be all I just need a time & trusting on him. its difficult.
anyway, today is my mom's bday, I gave her a midnight surprise. dan hal itulah yang membuatku merindukan akan hadirnya dirimu lagi. I remember how you surprised me last year, it was just like this:') Tuhan.. Bila memang ini jalannya, buatlah perasaan ini benar-benar hilang sepenuhnya, tapi jika tidak, tunjukan aku, tunjukan kami apa yang harus kami lakukan... Sometimes I'm asking to my self, gimana kalau suatu hari nanti perasaan ini bener-bener gabisa hilang dan yang dibutuhkan hati ini adalah dirinya. Tapi semua butuh proses. Walau aku tau aku tak mampu dan tak mungkin bisa, tapi aku akan berusaha untuk melupakanmu...
Its okay, this is life:D we must be strong enough! I know we will, caio!!! \(´▽`)/
